Five-A-Day

so yesterday was the content to the revolution session. we take turns pulling out an excerpt, and my pick was, 

saying of Prophet Muhammad,

'The son of Adam will not pass away from Allah SWT until he is asked about five things: how he lived his life, and how he utilized his youth, with what means did he earn his wealth, how did he spend his wealth and what did he do with his knowledge.' (Tirmidhi)

so clearly, it portrays the situation of us on our Final Day where we will be asked;

1. how one lived its life on earth

2. how one utilized its youth

3. how one earned its wealth

4. how one spent its wealth

5. what one did with its knowledge

in the session, we discussed what the reals of the questions, how some situations are still problematic, and stopped us doing the reals, can we do something similar in our lives in here, and will it merits us, can we relate the above with our now, and etc etc etc. and here is when i realized about making a small effort to a great change, it was as if a light bulb lighted up in my head, and all of sudden i felt i've found what i called a small effort. it's a Five-A-Day (FAD) effort! all we need to do is, ask a question to ourself on after each prayer, and answer each questions without putting take tahu as the answer. and. why is five? we pray five times a day, so that is how i came up with five questions a day. as simple as that! will FAD works? well, it will. i believe FAD will help us to consult ourselves, discover our profile, untangle our blockages, connect us with our positive self, and help us to be better in every way, and improve ourself overall. it doesn't matter if we get stumped to answer the questions at first, or if we don't know the answers to the questions, and it doesn't mean there are no answers. we know the answers are there, our mind it maybe are too foggy since we've not consulted it for a long time. this is why we need to ask ourself more; the more we ask, the clearer our mind will be, and the more ready we will be to receive the answers; negative nor positive. and we did our first FAD yesterday, so we swapped questions. and to be completely honest, i really had a great time answering their questions. and i really hope i can do this with you as well. it's fun isn't it? (grinning!)

the start up, chill

i certainly hasn't posted anything in awhile since i was completely absorbed by my temporary tough times. i was completely lost, no clues how to get home, and it was a long massive day to day battle and, it took me a couple months to be home, and now i'm home. and yes, i'm using the word 'and' too often in one paragraph. pardon me! 

so today, is the first day of my revolution class, and not much of anything i can share with you. BUT! there is one thing that really got me in, truly. we were asked by Dr Mas, what is the toughest thought we used to have that affected us as a whole. i was stumped, recalling the thoughts that i have removed couple days ago. 

'sometimes i feel like my sins are too great, too many, so i abandon my prayers.'

'sometimes i feel like my issues are too unbearable, so i abandon my loved ones.'

'sometimes i feel like i'm falling so behind in life race, so i stopped running.'

disgracefully yes, i used to have these thoughts in couple months ago (the worst was when i got to remove the thing). so Rabia asked me, what did i do to remove the negative thoughts?

'take a chill pill.' i answered proudly!

'who taught you that?' she asked.

i said, 'someone'. 'he taught me to chill in everything we are in.' i added. 

she smiled. she seemed to know who is the he i mentioned.

and they all agreed. 

they agreed that the word chill is a powerful word. then they asked me how did i apply the word chill in every of my actions. that was tough at first to tell people how i struggled to insert the word chill in my whole life after i had a so many months of temporary-miserable-times kind of life. alhamdulillah, i made it to deliver everything you taught me, everything i know with no pause. (extremely!)

the word chill really helped me throughout the tough times. and now i have one new stand in reinventing myself, if we want more pahala, then we do pahala things. we could possibly do by start dropping one sin a day, and picking one good deed a day. (sustain!) if we want to be loved, then we do right things. if we want to be at the top of the life race even we are at the bottom, we do never-loosing-the-us-in-us. well, reinventing (completely!) yourself doesn't work overnight. it is impossibly possible. miracles do exist, right?

thank you.
there is nothing more i enjoy than all of this.
thank you.

all of my prayers for you.